I forgot how much I enjoyed writing here. My apologies.
It's been...how long since I've been here? Too long. A good friend of mine, who I met last September, has started up his own blog recently. His having done that reminded me of my own. There really has been a lot that has shaped me over this past whole year since I last wrote. I wouldn't even know where to begin to write.
But here I am. I am still living. I can thank God for that. I think that is something that I can write about: thankfulness. The school year, up until now, has proven to show that God answers prayers and absolutely lavishes his love on his people. In my Social Justice class, I learned a Hebrew word, Hesed'. As my professor explained, it is nearly impossible to embody the meaning of Hesed in the English language. However, the best idea we can get is what we use: lovingkindness or steadfast love. God poured out his lovingkindness. He most certainly bled steadfast love. I receive this to be blessings on his people; his richest, fullest, most abundant blessings. Moreover, God still pours out his blessings on his people still today. Do we notice them? I doubt it. Maybe some people do.
I know that part of myself is very pessimistic sometimes. Maybe pessimistic isn't the right word, but I definitely get down on myself and cannot see the Happy in life. Slow down! I must slow down! We must all slow down! Do we not put ourselves into an uncomfortable pace? Then we only end up in an undesirable place. At that rate, we miss all that God has bestowed on us. I had my eyes replaced. Then I saw. I saw the wonderful riches of God and how he has worked around me, through me, for me. If what I have received is not his hesed, then I cannot wait for the day that I do receive it.
Should we not go back to the ways of the OT? Should we not remember what it might be like to have lived in complete dependence on YHWH? Perhaps it should be our obligation to understand the New Testament completely yet only having understood the Old Testament. This brings to life for us the value and importance of having to reflect on our lives and see the hesed that God showers on the world.
